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Saturday, December 19, 2009 @8:50 PM
quote

from Indigenous literature by Drew Hayden Taylor:

"In one way or another, we all pick our own poison."

I agree.

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Friday, December 18, 2009 @7:45 PM

Dreams are funny things. I slept in the company of 4 cats today. It was a very strange encounter. Details to come.

Dreams.

Strange funny. Not ha-ha funny.

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@2:34 AM
pause

You'll probably never understand me, and I you.

So, bye!

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Thursday, December 17, 2009 @11:38 PM

Am I really failing? Do I not know how to relate to people anymore? Did I ever know?

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Wednesday, December 16, 2009 @9:47 PM
lullabies for little criminals

They were afraid of me, of my sadness. I put the shoes down next to my feet. It was like there was an invisible man sitting next to me, naked, except for his shoes.

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@9:18 PM
words of wisdom

瘦田冇人爭, 爭開有人耕

聽過嗎?

If you know already, then stop being a blind turtle, falling into a well you know you can't get your head back out of.

玩死自己都未知發生咩事!

Wake up! It's just all in your own head.

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Tuesday, December 15, 2009 @10:46 PM
answers?

I feel hollow. I'm done the book. It leaves me... really frustrated with the world. Even though it's a happy ending... It's so unsettling.

I don't like this feeling. This stirred up, spaghetti-heart feeling.

It's all wrenched up and annoyed.

Dislike.

(I am really have issues reconciling some things at the moment. It's hard and I'd like to block some parts of my life out. Too bad it just doesn't work like that.)

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@12:38 AM
I

have better things to do than to fraternize with the enemy of my very own heart. So run along and get lost. Don't talk to me please. I blocked you for a reason, you were scaring the living daylights out of me. Cut.

Lost and Found
lost
- my beloved cup warmer/holder :'( complimentary from Queen's Hospitality Services

found
- a tube map (very used, circled, etc.)
- Sean!
- my green Karen bookmark :)

***

Why are so many "good" movies (yes, they are in quotes for a reason) coming out on Christmas Day. How fail is that?!

Middlemarch is a lost cause. I gave up after Book 1. At least I got that far! But yeah, will pick it up as soon as I have all my other "academic stuff" under control.

On the other hand... I'm gobbling up lullabies for little criminals like a voracious animal. It's really a great read. Precious, so precious. Poignant and tragic.

More later, and quotations of course! (cf. next post for more)

It was dark by now. I hated riding in cars in the country at night. In the temporary illumination of the headlights, the insects were scribbling out messages from God that we couldn't get. You couldn't see what was up ahead. How did you know that the universe still existed a few feet in front of the car? How could you know that God was continuing to imagine it all? How could you be sure that he hadn't forgotten about the road and that you wouldn't soon be driving into nothingness?"

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Sunday, December 13, 2009 @6:09 PM
mayday

I keep dreaming about disappointments.
And people failing and ditching me or something.

Problem, how am I supposed to interpret this?

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Saturday, December 12, 2009 @11:52 PM
peeeeeeved

Ok, I know I posted just moments ago, but I need to rant. So here it goes.

All along, I've been convinced for some ODD reason that Dr. Watson (friend of Sherlock Holmes who helps him solve cases and stuff) is a fat, balding man who isn't agile or anything.

In comes Jude Law who PLAYS this Dr. Watson... and I was like no-%^&*(-way he's going to pull off a convincing Watson. First off I thought they were OLD guys smokin' pipes and such....and like sitting around deducting stuff with their butts glued to chairs...

KARENFAIL

Because Hollywood... is sort of right for once... about Dr. Watson.... I'm really upset about that!

But really, my old friend Sherlock isn't really that agile or actiony at all! Ugh! At least they got the "thin as a lath" and the moustache part right I guess... What's with Hollywood and the must-have "hot" girl around.

...very peeved. Very peeved indeed.



HUGEDigression: Ah Mo (Moses Chan) is devastatingly dreamy/hot/attractive/suave in a suit, a fedora hat and his REALLY GOOD LOOKING moustache.

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@11:24 PM
tourist in toronto

Someone suggested that I should be a tourist in Toronto, just to get a feel of my own city since I rarely do it. So I pretty much took their suggestion and spent a day downtown today.

Just to recount some feelings, smells, sounds... I thought it'd be fun to write it here when it's still quite fresh in my mind. Bolded are the landmarks! :)

Took a turn about Eaton's Centre. Nothing much changed, but I did learn a bit about the history. How Eaton's (the dept. store) was bought and such details. The Swarovski tree stood just as pretty as it did every year. I got a photo in front of it (cf. Facebook photos). It was pleasant, (albeit alone this year). Not something regrettable. Just a new feeling I'm learning to digest.

Took a long long route and some detours to Gerstein Library (Science Information Centre) - the U of T library. It was packed, of course, mostly due to the diligent students.

Oh, digression. Went and took a look at the "leg-up" building of OCAD. It's held up by crayons. Frankly, not very mind-blowing at all. walk walk walk... AGO! Saw the Anubis statue out front. Pretty cool building!

Anyway, Gerstein...I'll come clean. I fell asleep. And read 10pgs.
FAIL

Then we walked into the heart of Chinatown... sights and sound really interesting! It kind of felt like a fake HK, but the cold definitely gave it away. My friend was in search for a mahjong set and we came across some REALLY interesting stores. Not like I haven't been to Chinatown before... but I haven't been in a long time... Nothing's really changed but... just some super fascinating stores. Had a great time exploring little niches and catching different dialects/accents of Chinese... very cool indeeeeeedios!


... This schmucks, I feel like I'm doing my walk assignment from the London ENGL course I took at Hersty. FAIL Regardless, it was quite fun, cold, refreshing overall. Seeing my city in a new light. Really did try to pretend to be tourist. It kind of worked.

Where to next? Hm?

We're off to see the wizard,
the wonderful wizard of Oz.

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dob.11.10. // twenty.
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reading: Middlemarch
website: postsecret.com
headache: ling SW paper

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dec. 02 - ling test
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