Wednesday, November 11, 2009 @10:23 AM
stop thinking
mere coincidence? deliberate stirring of emotions (fat chance, unlikely)?
Exhaustion.
I hate those people outside my window and on my room. They bang and bang like they're trying to puncture my soul.
Ew.
They wake me and I need sleep.
The life of a student isn't a pretty one.
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Monday, November 09, 2009 @1:02 AM
music be the food of love
Goodness, thoughts alone can drive one insane.
Or one can easily drive oneself insane.
Insanity is just the brink of sanity and so I am on this brink.
It's impossible to rid myself of this not-so-stranger I keep thinking of. I can't purge my thoughts of him. He's like ink that can't be blotted out. Or some sort of contaminant that's taking over. Basically it's like choking on chemicals and I don't even know where it's from.
I'm stupid. But then again, we all are. I've fallen off the brink of normalcy long ago anyway, might as well fall of this other brink.
I just don't want to turn into an idiot and hide in my corner of the world and rot with moldy thoughts of a stranger who doesn't know of my existence.
OBDURATE
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Saturday, November 07, 2009 @1:59 AM
special occasions
(No progress made.)
Following movies that will be played every year:
Nov. 5th - V for Vendetta
Dec. 25th - Love Actually
Any other suggestions?
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Friday, November 06, 2009 @2:15 AM
tracking progress
... as of 2:30am, 6th of November
WH: 17/34 = 161/288 = 55.9% done
NA: 10/31 = 49/187 = 26.2% done
VIL: 12/42 = 115/496 = 23% done
Will keep posting. I need something to keep me reading and... not stop. Accountability, yes. It helps I think.
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Tuesday, November 03, 2009 @10:41 AM
501
Wow, I wasted my 500th post on insomnia.
That's just... sad. Oh well, there will be better times as Alfun says.
The wedding was beautiful. I bawled my eyes out... the day after. Which is so weird.
V is coming up... I can't wait. It's my 5th time watching it and the 4th year of this tradition of doing in on Nov. 5th.
Guy Fawkes... revolution. Rile it up! :)
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Sunday, October 25, 2009 @2:04 AM
obdurate
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someone please shoot me in the head or the lack of sleep will drive me to insanity.
i hate this.
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Saturday, October 17, 2009 @3:10 PM
waiting waiting waiting
...for the wrong people. It's happened more than twice to me this week.
I watched my past walk away last night. I was so glad I didn't have to say goodbye. It didn't even notice me.
I lie in bed and nothingness flows over me... nothingness... not even sleep. It's really painful sometimes, trying to unthink. Sleep is precious.
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