talking of Michaelangelo.
Monday, May 30, 2005
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baptism and animeNorth *which i didnt even go to* // 9:38 pm
weeeh! jac's baptism was really cool. The church was celeb it's 14th bday and me and cla were just like =_=" lol! haha cuz there was cake and everything... and old grannies that clara thinks are "cute" ... riiight i've got weird friends... (aside: it was also a little weird seeing kev gor there... talking to jac's sis... kinda like a WOAH ... weird-ness sorta thing... it's like one part of my life... sorta ... merging with the other part... yea okay im strange)
neway... i think the sermon woulda been good.... if i heard it in one language... the message was very nice. i love metaphors.... oh lampstands and bowls and lights =) so good hehe.... i really need to be that... i think God's been trying to tell me that since like... yea... since forever. so yea... the translator thing was a nono... the one-line-in-Chinese-one-line-in-English concept was....sigh.... esp. if u kno both langs fluently =_="
neway... the baptism ceremony - in particular the testimony was really touching. seeing that susan lady like... so emotional and just so touched and convicted by God reminds me of me. thinking back... that was what jones would've called "brokeness". like i was so touched by it and i dont even know that lady.... and wherever that lady is... i hope she knows that she touched lives... or at least one life when she spoke so honestly about her wrongs, sincerely asking for forgiveness. God continue to bless her. Let her be strong in You.
... so yea... i cheered really loud for jac... =) she told us the water was warm... ehehe wooow she got so many presents... and she felt really really blessed.... im so happy for her... *dear jac: if yur reading this... again, thanks for being such a blessing and such a wonderful sister to me even though im hard to tolerate*
sigh... i missed grace step jeh's and sam gor's baptism and i feel horrible for that. i sincerely hope that u'll forgive me... as i know you already have. i know that both of you really wanted me to be there to support you. i'm sorry that didnt happen... i still feel horrible that i missed it. i continue to pray for both of you...
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okay after that bit... im gonna move along to animeNorth.
OMIGOSH I CAN'T FREAKING BELIEVE I MISSED THAT THING! I SOOO WANTED TO GO! *screams then faints on the floor* there was NARUTO AND BLEACH AND INUYASHA AND IM PRETTY SURE THERE WAS PRINCE OF TENNIS STUFF THERE TOO! WHAT WAS I THINKING NOT GOING?! BAHHH! yea im sorta really mad and hyped up about it... cuz twiggers and kev BOTH went there and BOTH had tons and tons of FUN! leaving ME out. and they BOTH bought cute PHONE danglys WITHOUT me *faints* u can probably tell that im starting to get EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE because I JUST CANT BELIEVE I MISSED IT! I WANT MY RUKIA POSTERRRR *faint* i love you twigz for doing that for me *faint* I WANT A PHONE DANGLY >.< *whines and whines and whines*
okay i shush now. but i AM going to that anime convention next year. i DONT care who stops me. hmph. end of story. *goes off to whine some more*
ps. why the heck i blogged at 6:38 in the morning is unknown to the mysteries of my brain... off to do histo. wish me good luck on exams... wont be on for a few days. ciaO~ im out.
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lala // 5:17 am
went to jac's baptism today... saw kev gor... more on that later... but for now....
exams are coming up. *faints and pukes white foam on the ground*
last night i found out my jap name: kikumaru natsuki
isnt it lovely? vic sez natsuki's too pretty for me... i say kurosaki's too hot for him XP
other than that... i learned from hinners that good night is "oyasami-nasai" =) hehe hinners is sooo kewl... can't wait to see him again... soon
added his link... he's so coool =) haha go hinners!
"itadakimasu" is what you say before you eat...
atashi no namae wa kikumaru natsuki desu =)
if you're a close friend of mine... you can call me natsuki-chan... or if yur not that close u can called me natsuki-san... orrrr... if u really feel like it u can call me natsuki-sama ^^ geeehehe... it means "mistress natsuki"... as in higher rank... gehehe
Sunday, May 29, 2005
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totally wow-ed // 12:13 am
so last night... jacob started talking to me... and we had this like nice conv going on... and... basically it really got me thinking... so i guess i'd share it with you guys
so lately... i've been working on the hk summer school idea... and really at first... i was pretty sure God wanted me to go for whatever reason. I knew God was calling me there... but somehow... i havnt been getting news and... it's been frustrating... and i dont know where God wants me during summer anymore... and after i lost the election i was like "so God tells me to do something... and all of a sudden... it's like... not there anymore...."
so basically... jacob told me about how mr. vermont was saying to him... like okay lemme just copy the thing out... cuz it really meant a lot to me...
jake: mr.vermont told me this that in acts paul wanted to go to one city to preach and so he went. but when he was at the gates the angels of God stopped him and they were like "God doesnt want u to go here, iinstead go to THAT city"...mr vermont said that sometimes we do wut we think is right, but if God is really against it. he'll stop it cuz hes got a greater purpose for u.... sometiems we dont know wut to do and we wait for God to tell us and sometimets he mite not
that coming from jake ... really like... wow-ed me... like im just so... yea... jake told me that God has a greater plan for me and curt. I am waiting. I will wait. I'll wait for God to show me His will and I will try to go along with it. God help me. Amen.
One last thing about last night... got a little slap in the face ... by like... reality and just... how much i mean to other ppl... it's just that, i learned a lot about myself through my relationships with my "brothers" shall we call them. esp. matt, sam, kawai, victor... they've all taught me so much. i thank God for them each day and I thank them for standing by my side, or I thank them for teaching me what i need to learn.
Saturday, May 28, 2005
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*faint then drops on the floor and dies* // 11:59 am
lol... wow... after 3 loooong days of "suffering" i've come to learn... 3 very important things:
- always study for math before a test
- never lie 'cause it kills
- losing elections arent the end of the world
so that basically sums up my three days... like i had like a bio isp due... an acc exam due... freak man... i had NO time for CONICS. so basically i answered like 1 question out of the whole test =_="
man. lying is bad. never lie. it kills your conscience like MAD fast.
so i lost an election... what's the big deal anyway? i've heard so many "you lost i'm disappointed in you" today lol... what's with that?! i'm not even disappoint with myself lol... jacob will be a good VP i know that. so why are you all fretting? thanks for my supporters anyway... when you've come along side me... i know who you are... thanks for that
so like i get what is it? 8 surprises from vic =) geehehe
lol that was random but this is even more random... i think im a hug person... i got... 1-2-3-4-5-6-7 hugs today... lol i like hugggzzzz =) so when u see me gimme a hug.
lala.. so what else to day... OH YEA!!! CHEMMM YESSSS I GOT SOOO GOOODDD *faints and dies*
then sings song:
swimming swimming... in the squishy pool... some days it's hot some days it's not... in the squishy pool... (repeats 5x)
so yeaaaa lovely. i dont have to clean the cooler =)
8:58pm =_=" must go off b4 dad catches me...
ps. *faints and dies* thanks twigz i loveeee you sooo much *faints and dies again* i have a jac story to tell you guys.... *faints and dies last time* ALL prince of tennis characters are HOT!! all the senpais are freaking HOT and rukia is SO pretty... im jealous.
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about jac // 12:12 am
so today in bible class.... a little funky story happened...
hahaha... hm...
so jac has these little porfolio thingies drawn in her "shiro petto agenda" (i lost her real one =_=") ... yea... so shainas was looking at it and chcking it out.... then...
karen: jac. i have a confession to make. *pretends to look dazed for a few seconds*
jac: i can tell this is gonna be stupid.
karen: *continues to look dazed* jac. i....... have...... been.......
shainas: *continues looking at the sheet*
jac: what...
karen: .....in.....love.... with.... your........... *pauses*
shainas:
GRAPES?!THIS IS WHERE YOU LAUGH.
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
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trouble // 5:46 pm
got in trouble.
no net time after 9pm.
x_x"
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jap lessons from kitsune sensei // 3:55 pm
i got a jap teacher =) kitsune sensei (fox teacher) which is becca lo... im so happy... cuz shez so talented at jap. she's a great great teacher.
so far... i've learned the common phrases...
atashi no namae wa karin desu... (my name is karin)
atashi wa kawaii mecchen desu ka? (am i cute girl?)
atashi wa suuta no nikini jisuka (i have a lot of acne)
anata wa bakayaro desu(you are a jerk)
atashi wa anata watakushi o ai shiru (i know you love me) **most complicated one ever...
wakarimashite (i dont understand...)
Nihongo wa honto ni bakana desu (the Japanese language is really impossible) ** this is what i said after like 30mins of jap lessons
sumimasen (sorry)
sou itashimashite (you're welcome)
-san (mr./ms./mrs.)
-chan (add to name of close friend)
oyasuminasai (good night)
yes... oyasuminasai. *head is swimming in jap words...and jap grammar*
Monday, May 23, 2005
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deer caught in headlights behind fence // 1:34 am
didn't do much yesterday 'cept helped my ma with salad ... then went to bbq with fam friends... and twigz, my childhood friend was dere... boo too bad flo wasnt... it was fun as usual... havent talked to twigz in like 6 months and we finally get together...
talked bout anime... bleach =) and PoT... the lucky girl is going to anime North lucky luckyyyy ... i wish to go too sigh*
neway... bbq was actually fun as i sed up there somewhere... we ate lots and lots of kebab-ish thingys with fishballs and mushrooms... and lots of porkchops (the grownups were having some discussion about a chinese female actress who they thought to be a "pork chop" XD... if u dont get this it means yur not chinese...) neway... other than that kev (my godbro) was cooking... and i think he got a little bored.... but yea... vincent, his little bro didnt talk as usual. like twigz sed ... we've forgotten how his voice sounds cuz he hasnt talked to us in like 4-5 years.... and we've only known each other for 7... and vince's hair is like.... woah... lol my ma blurted "YOU LOOK LIKE SOMEONE FROM INUYASHA...." and me and twigz were like *what the heck?!* hahaha yea...bla bla... didnt REALLY get to talk to kev... but it was good seeing them in their new home all settled... twigz and i went to watch pingpong games in the basement... and we were fooling around with my low-battery camera...
twigz was doing this meningitus thing... where she like pretended to get spasms... that made me like laugh NON-STOP... lol... twigz always makes me laugh... her expressions are hilarious...
so neway... got some "hot" pix of me and twigz... with me almost falling down the stares ... and squealing from the fear of getting hit by a pingpong ball... sigh... i really need to overcome that fear...etc. etc.... nothing really interesting... cept twigz started pretending to be a hot man... i had a good laugh over that.... sigh... the night was pretty much over... after we went to see the guy's rooms and stuff... vince got the pink one XD gehehe
oh btw... u must be wondering why the title of this blog is "deer caught in headlights behind fence"... lol it's cuz ... in their basement... they've got these bar thingies... on the stairs... and we were sitting on the stairs taking pix... so then we wanted to do a "surprise photo" of kev... so i screamed his name and snapped it.... but half his head got cut off and most of the bars were visible... and i had a fun time laughing about it with twigz... that's about it... isnt that weird? haha
ps. kev likes nick tse o.0 which is kinda hard to imagine... but... *shrugs* okay
Sunday, May 22, 2005
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nothing // 5:43 pm
i didnt do ANYTHING today. nil. nada. nothing.
i was supposed to do bible, acc, AND history. but i did NOTHING.
i talked to sam and victor on the phone for like an hour... then watched bleach reruns all day... then ... did nothing. literally... sighhh. i need to stop wasting time.
you know... i've read other ppl's blogs... and they're all so deep and like spiritual and all that. then i look at my own blog... and it's like... so.... just... surface... and stuff... i dno...
im lacking nourishment in my walk with God. i need a flaming spirit again. someone help. someone help light the match and fire up my heart for God again.
i hear fireworks. i wish to leap in the air and be amongst the radiant colours. okay that sounded stupid. where's my bleach... i need bleach.
ps. renji and rukia story ... is so ... SAD T.T i want to cry
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havana nights // 1:47 am
hm. where to start. let's just say the night was ... cool ... looking pretty was fun. telling heidi to be ladylike was fun. pretending to be ladylike was fun.
fun. hehe =) so all we really did was like take tons and tons of pix... that didnt look so great.... well some of them were okay... so like... my new motto is "dont take pix with tall guyz unless i have a stool somewhere nearby..." ... cuz taking pix with tall guyz made me look 5x shorter than i really was... which was NOT a good thing... ppl like matt, art, those ppl... sigh... i shuld NOT take pix with them....
so i took most pix with derek all night... which is kinda weird... but... okay... lol... i find that kitsune and her ducky are the cutest couple everrrr (as in jason and becca) i got a couple of pix with the happy couple... and jason is really sweet to her... like REALLY sweet =)
so yea... oh and jason ho cameee =) hehehe i got a pic with him... funnn hehe met some new ppl... like tim's date... rita ... and aaron's date... =) that was fun....
oh yea.. i took like 5 pix with aaron gor... and non of them turned out right... =_=" what a stupid cammie... (as in camera) ... booo... neway... took lots of pix with curt too... we did the chidori hand pose hehe only hands... how funnn =)
the food was actually REALLY awesome... except... i was so SO bloated i wanted to fall over and die. esp. cause my dress was tight too... lol it's hilarious how kim had to pin her dress and she had to like suck it in hahaha.... funny
hmm... then what happened... oh right... then kattey got tummy illness and we escorted her out for "air" cuz she culdnt breathe... not that i culd with the latin band blaring music... (i think they were expecting us to dance... but we werent dancing...lol sighz)
the slide show was SO funny and goodddd... that song
... "As we go on... we remember... all the times we... had together..." *tear... tear...* sooo sad... cuz i'll miss the grads SOOOO much next year.... (matt looked hilarious on the slide show...)
then the night was pretty much over... with lots more pix.... then yea... then my ma drove heidi and mike kim home... and... la... that was it... end of my cinderella story. there was no prince... and no... horses... and no pumpkin nor mice... sigh
in a way... i wanted a date... cuz everyone had one to "cling" to... but... in another way, it was fun being singular... so much more FREE u know? but i dno... for sure im getting a date next year... FOR SURE... =)
yea... im done blablabla-ing about formal.... so i'll show you some pix lata...
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cinderella for a day // 1:31 am
actually i posted this on sunday... but i meant to post it on saturday.. so the date sez saturday... lol just in case any of you ppl are weirded out lol... well i just wanted to ramble a bit about formal day cuz it was so cool =) so here i go...
straight in the morning i had to wake up at like 7am to get to school to do my chem test.... oooh chem test... wasn't as terrible as i had dreaded ... but it was still difficult in some aspects i guess.... so miss ng was kind
enough to let me take it earrrrllllyyy in da morning so dat was gooood =)
lala then i visited with galyra and kafooey for a bit cuz we were having spare neway... lala 9am rolled along and it was time to go to formal place.... i was supposed to with matt gor and theresa but lol i ended up in aaron gor's car with enoch... so that was different =) very fun though... hehe
lala so we're finally there... boredness starts to set in... we're just lying around in couches... with nothing to do...
and enoch starts providing us with lovely music and all... then heidi and aiv comes... lala
nothing really significant happens except matt suddenly decides that my phone is interesting and he starts looking thru the stuff in my phone.... sighhh and he was ABOUT to dL a game for like 5$ each!!! gaaah! i was so scared he'd actually do it... baaah! so i was squealing like mad and everyone was getting very pissy and annoyed at me lol *shrugs*
then stupid matt gor made an offer of 100$ if i stay silent for the rest of the day... so of course... being the stupid girl i was i shut up immediately... lala... so then HE STARTED POKING MEEE!!! ughhhh and i culdnt make a noise.... sigh... the paiinnnnnn i was in lol... oh wellz *shrugs* sigh... so i stopped being silent after awhile so.. lala
we went to megawraps for lunch... hihi, theresa, enoch, aaron gor, matt gor and me... lol stupid me spilled heidi's can of pop into aa gor's tray =__=" sigh... that was so stupid of me... and matt goes "you're so clumsy" THEN HE DROPS SEAFOOD ONTO ENOCH'S CHAIR! =___=" who's the clumsy one now...?
so when we got back... all of a sudden matt and aaron suddenly decide it's a "fun" idea to like... dump me into the stupid fountain by the stairs.... so matt literally SCOOPS me up... after much protesting and squealing on my part.... and is ready to throw me into the pool. i was literally like 2 inches from touching water. i was SO freaked out... i was like squirming... ugh... freaky experience... thank God matt pulled me out in time =___="
then that was pretty much over... except we had a flower dilemna which was solved quickly with lovely red, orange, yellow and white =) ... of course the talented girls megan, duri and heidi were right there solving it =) hehe so lovely... THEN megan made me a LOVELY bouquet which i STILL have with me =) so it's really great...
then i went straight home with heidi to get ready for the thing... kattey, mel, jac joined =) and like... meldy helped us get our hairs done and our dresses all in tact... oh it was soooo fun... stressing over hair... and just
hair... and that lovely talk with heidi ... just... fun and like... care-free for once... so like.... wowed...
i curled my hair!!!!!!! IT WAS SOOOO LOVELY!!! i almost fainted when i saw myself in the mirror... i was THAT pretty =) okay... now im just getting self-indulgent hahaha... talked with vic for a bit... then... kept getting ready and listened to mega movie mix and stuffies.... lala oh-so-funnnn =) hehehehehe... it took us like THREE HOURS to get ready... oh and btw... jac actually put her hair up *faint* it was so shockingly nice! .... so yeaaaa everyone looked SO great =)
then ad came to join all dressed up and lovely already... and we all got whized off to renaissance parque for a lovely night =)
this post is getting reeeaaaaalllly long... so i'll continue with a second blog later about the actual havana nights =)
Friday, May 20, 2005
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excited is to giddy as nervous is to... crap! // 2:49 pm
yea... crap is right... chem test. 8am-9am. SCREWDNESS! im so dead... like it's not funny... PV=nRt... P1V1=P2V2 is... who's law? im dead...
lala... other than that FORMAL IS TOMOLO!!!! IM SOOOOO EXCITED! like im going insane... flower arrangements... setting tables... will be SO awesome... like FUN-NESS! wooow cant wait! i swear... i'll tell u ALL about it when i get bak....
the only sad thing is... that sai low wont be there =( booo... so sad
lala... chem... lala... chem... lala... STP... SATP.... lala... laaaala!
okay... now THAT'S just weird... im gonna go offline now...
ps. does anyone know who's gonna teach orchestra next year? i want to do rhapsody in blue.... wow... gershwin is the coolest musician in the world. his music is like .... toooo good to be tru... kay neway really need to study... pray and wish me good luck for tomolo... i'll be dead tired...
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jacqueline's talking... // 2:24 am
"I dont like that name... it's so long and ugly..." - quote jacqueline
yea.. it's another one of those random blogs where i just record what jac sez.... here we go
jac: dont talk to karen
karen: TALK TO ME!
jac: NO!
mel: "talk to me... tell me your name..."
jac: hahahahahahahahahahaha
*tickles* i love jac... she's my best friend. i love you jac...
jac: she finally called me jac... not jacqueline
karen: what's so wrong about jacqueline?
jac: *giggggles* *points above*
jac: points above? *laugh laugh*
karen: laugh laugh
mel: "i'm letting you i'm letting you"
mel: that's not the words karen
jac: oh.
isn't jac so random? i love you jac... forever.
jac: im getting sick of jac
karen: you just sed you're getting sick of yourself...
jac: the name
karen: the name
jac: *laugh laugh*
okay end of convo... math is over soon! ttyl =)
Thursday, May 19, 2005
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happy // 1:17 pm
i may be selfish, but let me tell you... today i'm happy. because i found out that ppl care. ppl love. ppl around me care. ppl around me love.
thanks so much to all those who taught me not to despair. and not to think that nobody cares... cuz i know you do =)
so im getting better... much better... and im happy for that and i thank God for that.
my friends are good to me. too good.
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wondering...pondering... // 5:37 am
im still sick. sigh. i need to do something about this.
lala sniff sniff *sneeze* booo i really need to get better. i missed the chem test... sigh what to do what to do? what will miss ng dooo?! blah! SAP test will be tomolo as well... i hope miss ng will show compassion and let me do it on tuesday... oh please please!
sigh... well today was good 'cause i really got a lot of rest. i actually SLEPT. i ate congee and like got a little better... which is good =)
Interestingly enough, this is what God is showing me...
Psalm 86:15- But you, O Lord, are a compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness.
slow to anger hm? *twiddles thumbs...i wonder who needs to work on that* ... yea im not slow to anger... and i need to learn to not be...
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
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novelty // 3:31 pm
seems like because this is a new thing, i'm blogging again. we humans... we live by novelty... anything new, we run after and hunt until we chase it down. and then suddenly we realize, it's really not that great.
what the heck am i talking about. i complicate things. yea, i told myself that. i learned that a lot thru the reactions of my friends. i complicate things too much. mayb i need to learn to simmer down and run to God more for His protection.
so yea... let's count how many relationships i cracked tonight. 1....2...3...4... 5... how many more can i crack? i hurt myself more than they hurt me. my pride my burdens... everything seems to be slapping me in the head.
my english isp is far from being done... will novelty lead me to write another blog before i go curl in bed and try to sleep on this restless night?
im sick. emotional-ly. physical-ly. spiritual-ly. everything-ly. im sick.
i am sick of this. God be my strength now, this is my prayer. Amen.
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scrap the old one. here comes the new one. // 4:18 am
new blog. new beginning. new dreams. new... er...
yea... this is it... newness... it's "in"
from now on this is where i ramble everything. i got sick of karrotzdreamz. so here u go... prepare for another... boring... blabble
so lala letz start fresh from today. im sick lol. stuffy nose. coughs. headache. the usual.
i need more sleep. that's what everyone tells me.
sigh. friday is formal hm? sigh. my dress is pretty and dreamy and black. i know... i wanted a light coloured dress... sigh... black... oh well.
sigh. i said i'd start studying for exams... what happened to that? sighz... oh well... so much to do... too little time... yet i still sit there dreaming.
campaigning, english isp, bible essay, bible questions, sap test, history assignments from like weeks ago, math quizzes along the road... when will it end... sighz again...