talking of Michaelangelo.
Friday, March 31, 2006
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// 1:14 pm
im losing it
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tempted // 7:26 am
was tempted not to post because of my temporary depression but. here comes. brutally hard one:
"what did i do?
to be so ____
and _____"
Who said this (made it up)?
Name a(nother) piece of written work that this was featured in, and the name of author. I'm looking for a particular one. The author says "What did i do to be so ____? Bear with me." It features =) Hope you understand the clues.
Thursday, March 30, 2006
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it does get harder // 6:01 am
"What is now _______ was once ________."
Fill in the blanks, give me the name and the date of birth and death of this person.
you know the prize =)I think this is quite difficult. XP
blog for today: you know what i love? the sound of laughter.
randomness. you know what else i love? reading directions on those shampoo bottles. it's so cool. i'm just a little weird in the head. but in the shower... my brain turns to mullish spaghetti. and i read shampoo directions. i love it.
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
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dedication // 8:12 pm
I posted the contest up as yesterday's post because for today's post I'd like to fully dedicate this blog to my wonderful cousin.
Happy birthday Connie, you mean a lot to me.Even thought you might not be here to read this, I still want to dedicate this to you. Take care of yourself, love, laugh and keep being you. Hah! You're another year older XP
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because I'm still working on my essay... // 8:49 am
I can't post up the contest yet.
Nor can I post up my MB summary. Pah!
Alright, here goes nothing.
4 Parts to this ContestFind the name of the
person who says this,
birth and
death as well as fill in the
blanks:
"The ____ form is magnificently illuminated with _____ fire. The teaching's voice is total _____ amid the ringing of wind chimes. The _____ hangs in the old pine tree, cold in the falling night. The chilled _____ in its nest in the clouds has not yet been aroused from its _______..."Prize: One Chocolate'Tis a beautiful one, it stands out to me. I have no idea what it means.
Typical.
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good morning =) // 12:00 am
It's the first day of school and March Break is... gone. I'll give you a summary of my MB as soon as I'm done my much hated Hamlet essay XP... but for now... for you contest interested peoplesss out there... here's the quote for todayyy. It's rather long and might be much harder than last time. But I decided to put this one up today because I am wearing silver moon earrings today. The moon is playful isn't she? =)
Answer both questions and get one chocolate (I said it'd get harder!)
Who said this and where?"The sun was shining on the sea
Shining with all his might:
He did his very best to make
The billows smooth and bright -
And this was odd, because it was
The middle of the night.
The moon was shining sulkily
Because she thought the sun
Had got no business to be there
After the day was done -
'It's very rude of him,' she said
'To come and spoil the fun!'"
Monday, March 27, 2006
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lyrics to a good song // 7:38 am
Finally Understood*from Chinese Paladin*Don't say anything
I don't want to understand
At least I can still have a beautiful dream.
Don't say anything
I really don't want to understand
I'm finally forced to understand that I have to let go.
At least I can still have a beautiful dream...
I don't want to understand...
Watching you slowly leave...
[BLOG CONTEST]
first person to answer on tagboard...PRIZE: ONE CHOCOLATEWho said this?"What has been will be again, what has been done will be done again; there is nothing new under the sun."
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hate log // 12:22 am
They tell me not to hate, but I'm sorry - there's hate and there's love in this world, that's reality.
I hate Hamlet (the play, the characters).
I hate essays.
I hate essays on Hamlet.
I hate zits.
I hate the end of March Break.
I hate procrastinating.
I hate schoolwork.
I hate Macala dialogue.
I hate Jiao Ju (from Xian Jian).
I hate waiting for University news.
I hate soliloquies.
I hate fighting.
I hate hating.
But most of all:
I hate Chinese Herbal Medicine. (Also known as leaves and bug soup. Vomit.)
Friday, March 24, 2006
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sacrifice? love? // 7:53 am
what is this?
shi mo shi dao?
why death? why sacrifice?
why love?!
what is this?
tears. 28.
In memory of the character of
Lin Yue Ru. Your love exists forever. Your past, your future, your end, your smile, your laugh, your bells, your happiness, your
love. Your unconditional, unselfish love. It lives forever in Xiao Yao. It exists forever.
tears. I'm drowning in tears.
why love? what is this? why?! why her?! why? why will changing the past not happen?!
what is love? what is this?
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
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shopping =) // 5:26 am
Please check the list below for slashed out items! =) Went fairview with my MOTHER and guess what?! other than the items on my list.... I bought.... 3 pairs of pants, a shirt AND =) a PURSE FROM AE! *round of applause*
Alright kiddos, I rented another movie. Seriously, this MB is movie fest or something. Will give summary list of ratings when MB is over =) Have a good day.
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
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i am // 2:50 am
in
such a bad mood
Monday, March 20, 2006
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this is what they call... // 10:37 am
"tween girlish frivolity" 2.7stars my buttocks! it's more like
4.7stars...
An excerpt from "4Ever" by The Veronicas
Come on baby we ain't gonna live 4everLet me show you all the things that we could doYou know you wanna be together
And I wanna spend the night with you
Yeah, yeah with you(u) yeah, yeah
Come with me tonight
We could make the night last 4ever
Let's pretend you're mine
We could just pretend, we could just pretend, yeah yeah
You got what I like
You got what I like, I got what you like
Oh come on
Just one taste and you’ll want more
So tell me what your waiting for
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she's the MAN // 4:40 am
DANG. that movie was SO good. like awesome.
4.75 stars.
i think olivia is SO PRETTY. how can she be SO PRETTY. i want to be as pretty. i think olivia is pretty. olivia. is. so. pretty. ugh. and duke is SO DANG BUFF hehehehehehehehe *wiggles eyebrows*
lala. I bought my first hoodie - re`vamping my wardrobe... well my hoodies that is. My list is as follows:
- one/two new baby blue hoodie(s)
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one new white hoodie-
one new navy blue hoodie- one new grey hoodie
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one pair of track pants (preferably grey/black)-
pair of nice blue shades- sweaters... maybe?
In other words, I need to go on a major shopping spree. =) Let's see how much I can cross out by the end of MB. =)
Sunday, March 19, 2006
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Thoughts of Today // 1:54 pm
Myyy goodness, what a day.
Basically, Calculus Tutor, then movie, then Chinese Paladin, then Hamlet essay, then Chinese Paladin, then Herbal weird bath thing (EWWWWW), then more Chinese Paladin, then ABS form for Laurier, then MSN, then Hamlet essay.
That is the longest run-on ever.
Well, just want to comment on the movie I saw. It's the Chinese version of
Shopaholic. Cast: Lau Ching Wan, Cheung Pak Chi, Chan Siu Chun, Koon Yun Na It was pretty funny. Fong Fong Fong hahaha. I liked the idea of it, but they copied too much of the real Shopaholic.
I quite liked the weddings though... hahaha Gan Yun and Ding Ding Dong; Gan Yun and Fong Fong Fong hahahaha then there was Kung Fu and Ding Ding Dong; Kung Fu and Fong Fong Fong hahahaha... It wasn't crack up funny 'cept at some parts. I liked Maggie Siu as the dai toe por XP hahaha I rate this movie
4 stars. It's worth a watch... if you have spare time. Umbrellas are so romantic, but they make such a joke of it in this movie. =( lol still love Fong Fong Fong (only the name) hahahaha ooh and that guy who could only swear hahaha .
"
Hong Kong city people all have problems and diseases." - understatement of the movie. lol how daunting XP LOL HAHAHA AND HE COULDNT CHOOSE BETWEEN PORKCHOP RICE OR SIU YUK. AND THAT JUDO, BOXING PART WAS SO HILARIOUS. okay i think it's
4.5 stars
Basically, that's it. Totally obsession over Ming Dao. He's so
shuai oh! =) Go AQMFS! =D Yaaay Adalia's back. More obsession.
Saturday, March 18, 2006
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d-e-s-p-e-r-a-t-e // 6:50 am
Yeah, I'm still thinking about it. Got a problem?! STOP CALLING ME SIU HAY. I know I am. You don't need to tell me I'm THAT either.
So what if I want a date for formal?! SO DO
YOU. SO SHUT UP.
Anyway. I can't believe I'm STILL thinking about it.
Anyway, let me share this FEATURE VID with youuuuu. 183Club Zhe Mo =D I love the lyrics SO much. For translations, ask me for them @ blu.karrot@gmail.com
Hope MB is going well for everyone out there. By the wayyy, anyone wanna go skatingg?
Friday, March 17, 2006
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therapy // 9:20 am
curl, read Ecclesiastes.
long baths
stomach-cramping crazy workouts
(which consists of 30situps)
okay, im taking it slow.
i know you're laughing...
but for someone who hasn't done exercise for a few years it's ground breaking.
jasmine rose tea
curl, read Ecclesiastes.
long baths.
long baths.
tears.
tw drama.
tears.
long baths.
Thursday, March 16, 2006
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desperate measures // 12:27 pm
crawl in bed, curl.
tears. let the tears flow.
hate.
tears. let the tears flow.
sleep.
hate.
wake.
call out to God.
tears. let the tears flow.
curl.
cover.
bury.
drop. roll. run. cry.
sleep.
hate.
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
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anti-you // 2:23 pm
After all this...?!
Monday, March 13, 2006
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a lesson from skaters // 11:13 am
Today, Clara, Katrina and I went skating together; then we went prom dress shopping and Clara found a dress! It's really beautiful. Laugh out loud, we kept missing Adalia.
Anyhow, a lesson from skaters. On the rink today, there was a very adorable little boy who was around 2 or 3 and he was just a silly little thing, speed skating around and giggling. And there were little tufts of hair sticking out of his helmet holes which was really adorable. But he kept falling and tripping and coming back up again giggling like an innocent little boy would.
A lesson: if you fall, just come back up and laugh it off, life is easier that way.I hate PSEs. Hope you're safe at Mt.Tremblant. Hope all of you are safe at NB.
I want a dress that fits me and dazzles.
Sunday, March 12, 2006
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trent // 6:33 am
is very beautiful.
I'd want to live there, the campus is breathtaking. The library by the river and the river view is just awesome. I love it.
Alright, now... for the PSE... ahem ahem. Laugh out loud.
[edit]
Pray for those brave warriors who are out in the spiritual battle field in New Brunswick doing God's work. May the door-to-door evangelism be effective and not nerve-racking.
Saturday, March 11, 2006
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rejuvenation // 11:23 am
I'm hoping for a spiritual, emotional, additudial (if that's a word) and physical rejuvenation this March Break.
I want to get on top of things so that when I get back to school, I'll cruise and enjoy it.
[Going to Trent tomorrow to see campus. Hope I like it, so that I don't feel as hopeless with Queen's.]
Just going to leave you with this, again an excerpt from "Call Someone who Cares":
"I dream that I am the girl, I am tired of being her because it is not fun anymore and we are not happy but I think we are in a place that the pain did not come yet, because I think that you can't feel hurt like that and just forget about it, I think that it leaves cracks in your heart to be hurt like that." I really adore Rising because she says such profound words that I cannot forget, because I am her. Almost.
Maybe.
Friday, March 10, 2006
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excessive // 8:27 am
I've gone too far.
There's no turning back.
Thursday, March 09, 2006
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tiredness // 6:34 am
I'd like to publicly declare that I absolutely, most definitely
hate Anse with a passion. Hate. Yes. Hate.Wow, you have no idea how much I ate today. I ate way too much. Food list:
- hot soup with rice
- salisbury steak
- potatoes
- carrots
- blueberry muffin
- tangerine
- chips
- 2 hardboiled eggs
- congee, fish
- apple juice
Talk about being gluttonous. I think sloth and gluttony are the only ways I cope. I sin. What to do? Anyway, like the past two days... I'd like you leave you with a few passages this time... one from
As I Lay Dying and the other one from "Call Someone who Cares" (respectively). I hope you like these two quotes as much as I like them.
"If you could just ravel out into time. That would be nice. It would be nice if you could just ravel out into time." - Page 208, (Darl) Faulkner
"Sometimes I aint so sho who's got ere a right to say when a man is crazy and when he aint. Sometimes I think it aint none of us pure crazy and aint none of us pure sane until the balance of us talks him that-a-way. It's like it aint so much what a fellow does, but it's the way the majority of folks is looking at him when he does it." - Page 233, (Cash) Faulkner
"But she loves him too much and it is making her stupid and I am Rising and I hope that I never love someone so much that I can't do the things that I want to do. Because that is very stupid." - Page 8, (Rising) Victoria
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
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never had a dream come true // 8:23 am
Actually, the title of the blog has nothing to do with the blog at all, it's just that I like the song.
Just want to record some randomness here for today then a blurb from "Call Someone who Cares" again. =)
1. Today, spare... just want to thank you guys for such a great time, especially with Toe and Ebil. I am Bird. My good friends from spare: Green, Preggie, Gay, Toe, Ebil, Coke, Iso, and of course me, Bird. I had so much fun, thanks.
2. Another thing I feel the need to record here is that PCA Masquerade is so fun. I love laughing my head off at myself doing the dip bahahahaha! Oh, and Sonia is awful hilarious.
3. Richtree Marche muffins taste divine; and I am consciously making myself fat. Gluttony much?
4. Last thing about my random life: I think Dove Nutrium Bars mosturizing with Vitamin E is the most divine smelling soap in the whole entire world.
And here is an excerpt from "Call Someone who Cares":
"Love no love Love no love I am yanked back and forth I am loved I am not loved I am beautiful I am not beautiful I am fascinating strong I am nothing. I can remember when I was something I am nothing now I do not even know the girl that was something even though I am Rise and we were she once. It is like she was a skin and he held me inside of her and without him we fell out we fell and could not climb back up we are nothing now she is something that we look up and cannot reach. Love no love Love no love it is not worth it not worth it game this bounce this up-down here-there dangling in between held by memories it is not worth it. I am Rising and this is stupid."
That is probably my favourite passage. I wanted to add a passage from As I Lay Dying, but I guess I'll do that later, when I'm less saturated in the Rising storyline. Sore, Ja. That's all I've got to say for todayy.
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
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inspired by victoria duncan + bill faulkner // 10:20 am
___ i owe it to the two geniuses of stream of conciousness for this piece ___
[please use your own opinion to assay this piece, it is for record and fictional purposes only, anything you decide to deduct about this please ask me directly and not make assumptions thank you]
you saw him put his arm around me. you knew i was ...
but you didnt do anything but you knew and you noticed because i noticed that you noticed but you didnt do anything about it and that was bad because if you had done something then i wouldn't have
but that is okay because i had expected you not to do anything about it and just look on like there was nothing special to see because i am nothing special because that's just the way things work because
you knew but you didnt do anything about it so that was that and now i know that you knew because of your eyes and your little smile but at least you smiled and as long as you're happy then i am okay because your smile is the strength that ignites in my and when you walk past you think i dont notice you but i notice every move you make because you are
that is it. you knew and you did not do anything about it and i saw your hands walking but i didnt say anything but i still noticed your hands walking and i still noticed your smile and your look when you are with her.
irony isnt it that you care so much but dont care but when you do care then they dont care but when you see her your fire is ignited because when you see me your fire is not ignited but that is
you are so different that is why i knew
but mostly i noticed that you knew but didnt do anything about it.
and i thought tangerines are nice and juicy but they can be bittersweet too like oranges and like grapes and seeds are bitter and sometimes they are sweet but mostly
i noticed that you knew.
[now a blurb from the genius: victoria duncan... i just wish to share this masterpiece with you because i think it's so worth reading. excerpt from "Call Someone who Cares" from now on, I will insert excerpts of this into my blogs because it is just so beautiful. credits all to victoria duncan who i admire so much. thank you for sharing this beautiful story with me.]
"But when it is dark normally you can't touch the dark. It is so far away that even if you were to chase it you would never get a handful of dark, and even when you reach out you see that the dark is not really there. But the darkness in here is soft and touchable. It gets in my eyes and ears and nose and I know that I am not just seeing very dark dark, I am inside of real darkness and it is inside of me. That is what it is." (Page1)
"But I have never cried because my mind was trying to be a big-girl mind but it could only do it for a little while and now it is all out of big-girlness and it just wants to run away. I have never cried because I was broken, and this girl is broken and all of the broken pieces are hurting and she doesn't understand any of it and if someone told me I could feel like this then I would have told God I wanted to stay with him in heaven and I think that when mommy read me the book about Peter Pan and I said he weas silly because growing up is nice and you can do things like ... We are going to stay in here until we can stop crying and then we are going to go out and smile big." (Page4)
Sunday, March 05, 2006
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// 3:04 am
Say that you love me. Say that you care.
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exchange of values // 2:28 am
Everything, is simply an exchange of values.
It's kind of sad really, if you think about it hard.
Artlessness can only be found in children. There's no such thing as artlessness in our real life. Beyond maybe the age of six, artlessness is nothing. It means nothing anymore.
Falling into the trap of Mr. Thomas Hobbes. Sad, no? Is there such thing as altruism anymore in our world?
Everything, is simply an exchange of values. You treat someone well, they'll treat you well because they want you to continue treating them well. Deep deep inside, that's what they're feeling.
A bit of cynicism from me. Sad, no?
Do i really believe this? Or am I blumbering again?
Saturday, March 04, 2006
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48 _ cold.two+ // 7:50 am
You know today?
Well, I missed you
a little.
No. A lot.
I don't know why but
in the morning, I felt
so cold.
Because your shadow seems to give me
an added measure of strength.
Today, I missed you.
We talked about
Vardaman today.
They said "Nonsensical,"
but I said no.
Because
Vardaman.
After, I was happy but
I still missed you. Why?
Because today
your smile.
your shadow.
Friday, March 03, 2006
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cold // 12:15 am
I feel like... I don't know where to go or belong or stay.
I feel like she has somewhere to belong: his arms while I have nothing but a false reality. I have nowhere to go.
I wish I have a prince somewhere out there and that he'll find me soon. More like, I'll find him soon. I'm so tired.
I feel so left out. So so left out. Tears just come spilling out.
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
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Today, // 11:42 am
God gave me a zit beside my mouth to remind me not to be gluttonous.
I lost control. Complete control. Feels as though I'm going, going and going.
And if I don't make it back, then I love you. and you. and for those of you who know one of my you's that I love, but know that they don't know that they're a you that I love, then tell them.
Because I love you.
Happy birthday size 47 girl who rolls her pants.