talking of Michaelangelo.
Monday, October 31, 2005
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wow... // 7:13 am
Sometimes I'd just would like to know WHAT is going through their heads?! SERIOUSLY. (I mean all males - including those who do not act male)
My goodness. So I'm driving along... in my driver instrctor's car... wow I'm serious.... what did he EAT?! He had some temper... like pissy mood thing.... which made me more scared of him than the traffic in front of me. He KEEPS telling me I can't accelerate properly because the car is jerky... wow... Okay maybe the car IS jerky... but no need to tell me I suck.
Then... he goes OUT OF HIS WAY to embarrass me. He makes his next student sit at the back and "observe" me. As if that isn't humiliating enough... he makes me go on the freeway. I'M NOT KIDDING. THE FREEWAY. AT NIGHT. At this point... my hands are sweating so much they are about to fall off. The fob guy who acts like a girl and swears in Chinese in the passenger seat starts snorting with laughter at my misfortunes of not knowing how to go on a freeway! HELLO!? IT'S LIKE MY SECOND TIME! AND IT'S NIGHT TIME AND I'M NOT USED TO THE LIGHTING AT ALL!?
So now I'm angry with all males. I think things like this just build or something. ... So I'm done venting. I feel a lot better.
Do all females agree with me? Males = a race that will never be understood
Saturday, October 29, 2005
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time // 10:57 pm
If time could just stand still and not run away -
then maybe time wouldn't be needed to heal wounds.
Time won't wait for you. Time won't fix things, nor will it make things better. So... just accept it. Move on.
Time won't help.
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im truly happy // 5:48 am
"it's not the end of the world...yet."That has to be the understatement of the week. Starting Monday morning off with a greeting of Literature homework - that I did, but did not have to discuss! (It's always like that. When I do it, it's never checked... when i don't do it... sighs.) Tuesday... oh tuesday tuesday dear dreadful tuesday: grammar test, philosophy test... why oh why? Wednesday rolls along... here comes the essay due date! (I give all my thanks to Mr. V for postponing the test.) Whiz past that and we arrive at Thursday... tiring - then here comes the explosion.
Complete drama. That's all i can say. All drama. Drama Drama and more Drama. More crying. And more drama. One of those "Oh-I-thought-I'd-lose-a-good-friend" dramas. I'm tired. Are you not?
But what makes me happy... is....1) Rommee called me his baby sis =) so now i have a new big bro who will protect me 2) i really got to talk to kenny jai the other night... 3) Got to talk to kattey and clara quite a bit this week... which is great
not much more news. I'm tired. Thank God the week is over. Thank you God for teaching me so much.
side note: wanna mention my always-supportive sensei (rennette) who is always always there for me. i just wanna give her a shout here.
Thursday, October 20, 2005
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i am thankful // 9:00 am
I am thankful to those who care. I am thankful that God answers prayers. I am thankful that dreams can come true.
I am thankful to my mother and father for always looking after me and picking up after me.
I am thankful for clara and for katrina. For their everlasting support and worry and care. I am thankful.
Special thanks to tim and melody for listening to me when I needed to vent.
I am thankful for those who care. Like sam goh, jerome, andy, christian. Thanks for helping me. Thank you for thinking for me, 'cause it means everything to me.
Finally, thanks concon for visiting my blog and checking on me.
Thank you God for forgiveness. Thank you God for love. Thank you God for second chances.
Thank you - you_know_who for forgiving me.
I will rebuild. I have fallen, but I will change and I will keep going. I will be better than before. I have learned. Thank you for believing in me.
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
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// 11:48 pm
i am sick
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// 1:45 pm
i am not worthy
no more
im useless
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// 1:41 pm
i was right to wish time had stopped at that moment.
i feel worse that someone who's had their innards eviscerated without anaesthetics.
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// 10:46 am
im crumbling
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it's over. // 10:25 am
When I was young, my parents told me that if I lied, I would be okay as long as I admit it. But that's not true.
Some lies can't be undone. Some things can't be changed. Some words cannot be taken back.
I'm sorry. I don't know what else to say. I'm sorry. It won't change anything.