If you are a dreamer, come in,
If you are a dreamer, a wisher, a liar,
A hope-er, a pray-er, a magic bean buyer...
If you're a pretender, come sit by my fire
For we have some flax-golden tales to spin.
Come in! Come in!... for where the sidewalk ends. - Shel Silverstein

These fragments I have shored against my ruins. - T.S. Eliot

ren-ka // alias. karrot,kawun
dob.11.10.

I live in a world where
lobster and corn can be very
good friends.

. email .

i have known the eyes already
songs: Strokes
tvb: dinner at 8
kvariety: nil
kdrama: ryeo
twdrama: love O2O
anime: nil
book: Moveable Feast Ernest Hemingway
website: moonbeard
website: stumble
headache: the boy

about the layout
Credits to magnette from blogskins.com, mods made by me.
Lots of it is inspired by T.S. Eliot's Hollow Men and Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock.

- Oh... the days just go by // 12:42 pm

Today was a very long, but very short day. I like oxymoronic phrases like that ^^;

Anyway, just a quote I'd like you share with all you bored people who read my blog: "time was medicine, but in the end it became the disease" - kim hee jin

Isn't that depressing? Very. I am doing Writer's Craft character monologue THING. And it's making me very angry.

Also - I like The Sun Also Rises but that does NOT mean I like doing circles. I HATE circles.

I hereby, publicly declare that I HATE LITERATURE CIRCLES. End.




- Ignorance and Bliss // 12:55 pm

I am seventeen... and I am starting to notice that... there are times when I become nostalgic, even though my life right now is perfectly good and normal. I find myself thinking too much - or maybe that is just a personality trait I had always had.

But whatever it is, I realize that those "thinking times" made me grow a bit more. I did a personality quiz today. The results claimed that I still act like a 10year old. "Thanks" I said sarcastically as a response. Yeah, I'm always a kid in my heart, but oh how I wish for that ignorance and innocence once again.

What did I lose that to? Who did I lose that to?

Another thing I want to mention today. There is a girl... her name is Nahid. I want to put her beautiful name here as a sort of... memoir, a scrap of my own past. We used to grind sand into smaller pieces than it was already and called it "soft sand". We were young and beautiful. We'd play house every reccess. And after we graduated from elem school... I saw her work for her mother at A Buck or Two in Centerpoint.

I went there today. She was my cashier, but her face showed no recognition whatsoever as to who I am. I was a bit... saddened actually that my childhood friend... would not recognize me. Or maybe we are both just... afraid to make that step to... say something.

Maybe... she is blogging about me right now. Wishful thinking.

Oh how bliss is ignorance... (I don't know why I put that. meh.)




- I am back. // 9:23 am

Haaah! Back and better!

This blogskin is very... me. Original artist: nadiah, but her use of the word "a_se" is very bad... so i crossed it out and said butt instead. Same concept.

But here I am. Nice to see you all again. Thank you. Now comment. Now listen to the whole playlist. Great selection of Mando, Canto, Japo musix ^^ I absolutely adore this playlist format.

God bless. It is cold, but beautiful. May it stay beautiful, but let it be less cold.

Karrot is back to her blu_dreams. For those of you who can read Canto ping yum here's a quote for ya ... I made it up.

"Kay hai doe fat mung, chor hai doe fat mung, fun hai doe fat mung. Joe mut doe hai doe fat mung. Yuet fat yuet dor bak yut mung." - Karen
(literal translation: dream standing up, dreaming sitting down, dream lying down, dream while doing everything. soon you'll be daydreaming a lot.) - sounds better in Chinglish XP

off to dream




- i refuse // 7:33 am

... to blog until I make myself a new blogskin.




- wow. // 11:54 pm

So... my birthday "week" is over. How tedious.


I wish to kick and scream and throw something. There is just too much stuff for me to handle. Shall I just give in to temptation and give up?


Of course I shan't... in fact, I can't! I hate. Hate. HATE. Joseph Conrad's Heart of Darkness. No, I just hate writing an essay about it.


"Kurtz's last words reflect....... YOUR FACE." (Those who actually understand this statement please take no offense to it. I am just releasing my anger on your face - though there is nothing wrong with it)




- the end // 10:13 am

It is the end of sixteen.


The beginning of seventeen.


I want to go back. I do not like this.


Let me go back.


Thank you for the birthday presents, wishes and prayers. But my wish this year is to go back. That will never happen.




- oyyy // 8:39 am

I danced today because Lit essay is COMPLETELY postponed till next MONDAY! *dances some more*


Died laughing in spare today. Andrew Lee "proposed" with his tape + paper ring. WEIRD-O. Oh what else? LOL!!! SIKSEE turns into SEXY... does NOT work. hahahaha... and what else? Oh yes. Grace Leung is awful.


My dad asked me what I wished for on my birthday. I hadn't given it a thought. So I told him "World Peace" like I always say. But of course... a more realistic one... hm... still thinking.




- very petty things // 5:19 am

Very petty things, nothing really significant to comment on today. Reg. tedious school day... so three things to leave with you:


1) Malaysian salted chicken is MUCH better tasting than reg. Chinese chicken
2) Screwed over for sto-o-o-pid WC song analysis which was too short.
3) Here comes Lit essay. Beware of Lit essay. Beware.




- lalalaa // 1:22 pm

First I'd like to comment on Queen's University campus. Wow. I was awed. I'm not kidding you. I really like Kingston (even though it has a "Museum of Correctional Services" a.k.a. jail). The place is beautiful. SERIOUSLY. I obsess about the library. It's fab.


Second, just a short comment:


You (this can refer to many people or one person - take it how you like) - made me stop believing in second chances. But, whatever.




- nothing much to say XP // 7:16 am

Well - let's start with something hilarious. Well probably only to me, Jac and Kat haha... the part in the movie with the ugly guy and the girl:







- november 3-4: good start =) // 2:59 pm

November 3-4 ... was pretty significant to me... It was a really great... bonding time for me and my closest friends. So to briefly (okay not really) describe the two days...


We went to FV right after school and did some looking around at scarviess. Jac and Kattey both bought one (or in Kattey's case 2) and Kattey and I bought a nice sweater with attitude! bahaha!


The foodcourt experience was great. We just sat and chat for probably 2 hours. About life, about stories, about drama. About just everything. It was really wonderful to bond. Home we went and they insisted on watching the 9pm show. We played half a game of Monopoly with Katrina being EXTREME amusing XP. First - SPANKS! Wow... that cracked me up so bad.... "miracle _____" lol!!! hahahaha Second - CLARA GETTING MARVIN GARDENS!!! hahaha caNNOT stop laughing


Continued: Movie was next. The greatest Kim-Chi noodles thanks to my mommie... then DRINK DRANK DRUNK.... Cla and Kat were SO tired... that they both fell asleep... had to kick clara off her bumbum to shower. Jac stayed with me for the rest of the movie and we laughed our butts off at the "gay" part HAHAHAHA! and the "geeleegooloo" LOL!


More: up sleeping at like 3something am... which totally made us all look SO dead. Kattey braided my hair! It turned out really nicely =) wavely nice hehe how lovely.


Obsession of: 童話 even though it is COMPLETELY old. I'll post lyrics/mv site on next post. But me and kattey just kept singing it and singing it and singing it. And we never got bored of it.


Ahh and what else. Oh! Then Pmall today and that 2$ budget haha... wow that was really fun. Shopping for a thousand CD's (including 童話) LOL!


Great memories. =) I'll never forget all the laughter and fun. Thanks Jac, Clara, Kat. You're truly my sisters. (Except maybe for Kat, who by some strange strange way is related to Charmaine Sheh - long lost sis? HAHAHA jokingss) Thanks again.


PS.here's the mv and lyrics: it's really great. take a look (if you're not chinese... sorry you miss out XP) http://blog.sina.com.tw/archive.php?blog_id=3582&md=entry&id=8038




- hmmm // 1:53 am

I want a new layout.


I will whine and whine until I find a new layout.

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