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shape without form, shade without colour
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do i dare?
Michaelangelo.
let us go and make our visit
time for you, time for me click above for a handful of dust
so how should I presume?
If you are a dreamer, come in,
If you are a dreamer, a wisher, a liar,
A hope-er, a pray-er, a magic bean buyer...
If you're a pretender, come sit by my fire
For we have some flax-golden tales to spin.
Come in! Come in!... for where the sidewalk ends. - Shel Silverstein
These fragments I have shored against my ruins. - T.S. Eliot
do i dare...disturb the universe?
ren-ka // alias. karrot,kawun
dob.11.10.
I live in a world where
lobster and corn can be very
good friends.
i have known the eyes already
songs: Strokes
tvb: dinner at 8
kvariety: nil
kdrama: ryeo
twdrama: love O2O
anime: nil
book: Moveable Feast Ernest Hemingway
website: moonbeard
website: stumble
headache: the boy
about the layout
Credits to magnette from blogskins.com, mods made by me.
Lots of it is inspired by T.S. Eliot's Hollow Men and Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock.
talking of Michaelangelo.
Monday, December 17, 2007
- boooook me! // 6:25 am
[edited 5:48pm 12/17/07] Copying Michael Li is fun. 'Cept I'm a little more elaborate. Oh, I want to sing k. Please, let's sing k. (?) = tentative
17 JAPN100 Study; 鬥牛，要不要; Gossip Girl 18 DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN 19 getting Hair done; movie w/Jackie 20 Bake&Movie w/Ad 21 Sisterhood day 22 sing K w/Jackie & Sallay 23 dinner @Auntie Doris's [free rest of day] 24 Skating w/Mike; family dinner 25 family 26 family [BOXING day shopping?] 27 sing K w/Derek & Denny; hotpot w/Cla's fam 28 205Alfredo Day; MUK sleepover 29 MUK Day XD 30 Movie with Mike; HotPot w/Ad 31 Greektown with PoonPoon; countdown with 205
January 1 2 3 Georgie&Mike Day 4 PCA people dinner [free rest of day] 5 6 Back to Kingston!
And you only want three wishes: One to fly the heavens One to swim like fishes And then one you're saving for a rainy day If your lover ever takes [their] love away...
imeem is a delicious thing. It allows me to post music. Ah, for music is the food of love. Enjoy these lulls. These are melodies are swirling in my mind.
"Spotted. Chuck Bass, losing something no one knew he had to begin with: his heart."
"I can't help it. I never should've let you... let me go."
"It's often said that no matter the truth, people see what they want to see. Some people might take a step back and find out they were looking at the same big picture, all along. Some people might see what was there all along. And then there are those other people; the ones who run as far as they can so they don't have to look at themselves."
You want three wishes: One to fly the heavens One to swim like fishes You want never bitter And all delicious
I built a bridge across the stream of consciousness That always seems to be a flowin' But I don't know which way my brain is goin' Oh the rhymin' and the timin' Keeps the melodies inside of me And they're climbin' 'Till I'm running out of air Are you prepared to take a dive into the deep end of my head Are you listening to a single word I've said?
Ah La La La La La La Listen closer to the words I say Ah La La La La I'm Stickin' to the wordplay Ah La La La Love The wonderful thing it does Because, because I am the wizard of ooh's and ah's and fa-la-la's Yeah the Mr. A to Z They say I'm all about the wordplay
And of course, I live in a world of paradoxes. There are two sides to it. Always.
One is the unattainable, unreachable... and yet on the other side - there are those fleeting thoughts. The ones I just get on a whim. In my mind's eye. Flowing through me... with lingering warmth and... things that may never be are always more attractive.
I digress.
I have just gotten what I've wanted for 2 months. Should that not be enough to satisfy my "appetite"? Why do I still want more? Wishful thinking has never gotten me anywhere. This won't either. I should just know my place and stay where I am... take it slow. The more this goes on, the more I feel like I'm a gluttonous monster wanting more and more and eventually - I already see it coming - I'll end up swallowing myself whole.
I can't always be a happy girl. I wish I could be. I can't always laugh like I do in front of everyone. I need a break once in awhile. Everything I put up, all the facades, they may be beautiful, but inside... what if... it's really something rotten. What if the real me is just waiting to have someone to change for?
That's quite enough. I ramble. 我好幸苦啊... 好似無人明白為什麼我會這麼痛苦... 雖然我的problems都沒什麼大不了但是我們每一個人不是會當局者迷... 誰會做我的旁觀者...幫我看清我現在做甚麼呢?
I wish that my best friend could be here right now.
Ever ever after Though the world will tell you its not smart Ever ever after The world can be yours if you let your heart believe in ever after
No wonder your heart feels its flying Your head feels its spinning Each happy ending's a brand new beginning Let yourself be enchanted You just might break through to
Ever ever after Forever could even start today Ever ever after Maybe its just one wish away Your ever ever after
It's keeping me grounded, even though I'm chasing something that will force me to fly into some sort of fantasy that may never belong to me.
But, if I spend every waking moment trying to push it away, I might as well try, fall flat on my face and stand up again. At least then, I'd know for sure if it's something worth it or not.
Move forward, try to smile like I mean it and be myself.
What else can I do?
I'm throwing everything else away, so what does it matter if I make a fool of myself? I will keep running and running in that circle until someone breaches it.
Please, can you be someone who's worth it?
Then I can walk out of the endless wheel. And I can look at the sun again. Not taking a step will only push me further into the shadow, so why not...
Perhaps... it is time to stop being Prufrock and stop asking if I dare.
Yes. I do dare. And now I will try to reach for you.
