talking of Michaelangelo.
Thursday, December 31, 2009
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what are we renouncing // 3:09 pm
Because I know that time is always timeAnd place is always and only place
And what is actual is actual only for one time
And only for one place
words words words, his voice comes through to me
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
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bored and thinking too much (again) // 1:13 pm
Self-preservation... proves to be more difficult than I thought!
Monday, December 28, 2009
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// 11:29 pm
I've decided. I'm walking down the aisle to this song:
Glasgow Love Theme by Craig Armstrong (from Love Actually)
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break tradition // 1:35 pm
This year, instead of watching
Love Actually on Christmas day, I Gleeked out with Chiyo-chan :) What a lovely time we had! Really going to miss the late night chats.
At the moment, my mind is quite "full" (like a potbelly) on Love Actually. Must not break tradition next year!
"If you look for it, I've got a sneaky feeling you'll find that love actually is all around."
3rd-wheeled it today :D and agh I know you're reading and it's making me so conscious of my writing now, which is bad.
My cousin-in-law eats like a cow. He has 15 stomachs, I swear. He eats so much and he thought his air-conditioning didn't work but he actually just didn't turn it on.
But yeah, Love Actually gets me thinking every time. It's such a pretty movie. Not pretentious at all. So real and I kind of love Alan Rickman! London scenery is so pretty during the winter. The tinkly lights and all.
I love this part, even though it's sad, wrong and unrequited (just about my most favourite type of fictional love ever)? "But for now, let me say - Without hope or agenda - Just because it's Christmas - And at Christmas you tell the truth - To me, you are perfect - And my wasted heart will love you - Until you look like this."
Rowan Atkinson adds a little magick to the movie I believe. He's the sort of character that kind of gives a wink to it ;) I like.
"I don't care about the present underneath the Christmas treeee..."
Now, let's wait for the year to end.
P.S. I received an "intellectual and humorous" present today. My ba said I was complaining so much about Mr. Sherlock... that's why it's "humorous" and really appropriate. Either way, thanks. The wrapping paper was adorable!
P.P.S. I think we should bring hot chocolate, cookies and milk to the cops that stop people to check alcohol thing. I had the privilege of being stopped today by a Mr. Officer who was really really really nice. I was altogether thrilled during the experience (span of about 2 minutes or so). It was all so exhilarating! I think it was the highlight of my Christmas Holiday. He has this cone flashlight thing... with moderate warm incandescent light. Stuck his head in... asked if we had alcohol...
EXHILARATING! Much fun.
P.P.P.S. It's done by a program called R.I.D.E. (R...Impaired Driving E....) I don't remember the acronym very well... Anyway, great program. I'd like to be stopped sometime and tell them "No, I did not indeed have any alcohol to drink today."
Now, let's sit idle and wait for the new year to be upon us.
Saturday, December 26, 2009
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// 1:28 pm
Merry Christmas and Good Night,
Friday, December 25, 2009
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arrested development addiction // 3:15 pm
"You need Bob Loblaw." HAHAHAHA
Chuck is still the best show in the world though.
Thursday, December 24, 2009
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my favourite things // 1:03 pm
Reminds us what simple joy is. How simple happiness can be.
I felt my heart soar with the melodies. Something that hasn't happen in... quite awhile really. Indeed, the hills are alive with the sound of music.
The children are so talented.
What a beautiful show. It brought tears to my eyes.
Sunday, December 20, 2009
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quote // 9:50 am
from Indigenous literature by Drew Hayden Taylor:
"In one way or another, we all pick our own poison."
I agree.
Saturday, December 19, 2009
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// 8:45 am
Dreams are funny things. I slept in the company of 4 cats today. It was a very strange encounter. Details to come.
Dreams.
Strange funny. Not ha-ha funny.
Friday, December 18, 2009
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pause // 3:34 pm
You'll probably never understand me, and I you.
So, bye!
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// 12:38 pm
Am I really failing? Do I not know how to relate to people anymore? Did I ever know?
Thursday, December 17, 2009
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lullabies for little criminals // 10:47 am
They were afraid of me, of my sadness. I put the shoes down next to my feet. It was like there was an invisible man sitting next to me, naked, except for his shoes.
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words of wisdom // 10:18 am
瘦田冇人爭, 爭開有人耕聽過嗎?
If you know already, then stop being a blind turtle, falling into a well you know you can't get your head back out of.
玩死自己都未知發生咩事!
Wake up! It's just all in your own head.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
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answers? // 11:46 am
I feel hollow. I'm done the book. It leaves me... really frustrated with the world. Even though it's a happy ending... It's so unsettling.
I don't like this feeling. This stirred up, spaghetti-heart feeling.
It's all wrenched up and annoyed.
Dislike.
(I am really have issues reconciling some things at the moment. It's hard and I'd like to block some parts of my life out. Too bad it just doesn't work like that.)
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
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I // 1:38 pm
have better things to do than to fraternize with the enemy of my very own heart. So run along and get lost. Don't talk to me please. I blocked you for a reason, you were scaring the living daylights out of me. Cut.
Lost and Found
lost
- my beloved cup warmer/holder :'( complimentary from Queen's Hospitality Services
found
- a tube map (very used, circled, etc.)
- Sean!
- my green Karen bookmark :)
***
Why are so many "good" movies (yes, they are in quotes for a reason) coming out on Christmas Day. How fail is that?!
Middlemarch is a lost cause. I gave up after Book 1. At least I got that far! But yeah, will pick it up as soon as I have all my other "academic stuff" under control.
On the other hand... I'm gobbling up lullabies for little criminals like a voracious animal. It's really a great read. Precious, so precious. Poignant and tragic.
More later, and quotations of course! (cf. next post for more)
It was dark by now. I hated riding in cars in the country at night. In the temporary illumination of the headlights, the insects were scribbling out messages from God that we couldn't get. You couldn't see what was up ahead. How did you know that the universe still existed a few feet in front of the car? How could you know that God was continuing to imagine it all? How could you be sure that he hadn't forgotten about the road and that you wouldn't soon be driving into nothingness?"
Monday, December 14, 2009
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mayday // 7:09 am
I keep dreaming about disappointments.
And people failing and ditching me or something.
Problem, how am I supposed to interpret this?
Sunday, December 13, 2009
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peeeeeeved // 12:52 pm
Ok, I know I posted just moments ago, but I need to rant. So here it goes.
All along, I've been convinced for some ODD reason that Dr. Watson (friend of Sherlock Holmes who helps him solve cases and stuff) is a fat, balding man who isn't agile or anything.
In comes Jude Law who PLAYS this Dr. Watson... and I was like no-%^&*(-way he's going to pull off a convincing Watson. First off I thought they were OLD guys smokin' pipes and such....and like sitting around deducting stuff with their butts glued to chairs...
KARENFAIL
Because Hollywood... is sort of right for once... about Dr. Watson.... I'm really upset about that!
But really, my old friend Sherlock isn't really that agile or actiony at all! Ugh! At least they got the "thin as a lath" and the moustache part right I guess... What's with Hollywood and the must-have "hot" girl around.
...very peeved. Very peeved indeed.
HUGEDigression: Ah Mo (Moses Chan) is devastatingly dreamy/hot/attractive/suave in a suit, a fedora hat and his REALLY GOOD LOOKING moustache.
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tourist in toronto // 12:24 pm
Someone suggested that I should be a tourist in Toronto, just to get a feel of my own city since I rarely do it. So I pretty much took their suggestion and spent a day downtown today.
Just to recount some feelings, smells, sounds... I thought it'd be fun to write it here when it's still quite fresh in my mind. Bolded are the landmarks! :)
Took a turn about Eaton's Centre. Nothing much changed, but I did learn a bit about the history. How Eaton's (the dept. store) was bought and such details. The Swarovski tree stood just as pretty as it did every year. I got a photo in front of it (cf. Facebook photos). It was pleasant, (albeit alone this year). Not something regrettable. Just a new feeling I'm learning to digest.
Took a long long route and some detours to Gerstein Library (Science Information Centre) - the U of T library. It was packed, of course, mostly due to the diligent students.
Oh, digression. Went and took a look at the "leg-up" building of OCAD. It's held up by crayons. Frankly, not very mind-blowing at all. walk walk walk... AGO! Saw the Anubis statue out front. Pretty cool building!
Anyway, Gerstein...I'll come clean. I fell asleep. And read 10pgs.
FAIL
Then we walked into the heart of Chinatown... sights and sound really interesting! It kind of felt like a fake HK, but the cold definitely gave it away. My friend was in search for a mahjong set and we came across some REALLY interesting stores. Not like I haven't been to Chinatown before... but I haven't been in a long time... Nothing's really changed but... just some super fascinating stores. Had a great time exploring little niches and catching different dialects/accents of Chinese... very cool indeeeeeedios!
... This schmucks, I feel like I'm doing my walk assignment from the London ENGL course I took at Hersty. FAIL Regardless, it was quite fun, cold, refreshing overall. Seeing my city in a new light. Really did try to pretend to be tourist. It kind of worked.
Where to next? Hm?
We're off to see the wizard,
the wonderful wizard of Oz.
Friday, December 11, 2009
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middlemarch, // 12:12 am
I've been reading. Interesting insights and contemplations I've incurred from it.
Perhaps living in the 19th C may be less Indian muslin and trinkets and frolicking about at balls than I had though. Actually, it's quite a foolish ideal. Even though after 5 novels of Victorian, I should know better, you say...the social problems and living conditions... in particular Ruth and Great Expectations .... the horror, the horror indeed Mistah Kurtz. But still, one can't help but imagine... when 21st C films pretend it is so. We fail to think of the rigid social order this era commands. Or the misogynistic cultural backdrop... oh the pretty frills... let's just leave it at that.
Ah, enough of my rant. Here is my quote of the day, cleverly put, George Eliot,
We mortals, men and women, devour many a disappointment between breakfast and dinner-time; keep back the tears and look a little pale about the lips, and in answer to inquiries say, "Oh, nothing!" Pride helps us; and pride is not a bad thing when it only urges us to hide our own hurts -- not to hurt others.
Hah, we mortals. She glorifies pride... designs designs. All these designs to cover it up. Not inapplicable to nowadays by the way. Quite applicable. I just wouldn't word it quite so..... 19th C like... but still... hide our own hurts -- not to hurt others. I like.
Wednesday, December 09, 2009
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world is my oyster // 6:03 am
I want to travel.
On a completely unrelated note,
humans are so... vapid and idiotic.
We always want what we can't have.
We are subject to our own ridicule,
we hate it but we keep doing it,
wanting it.
masochism
Saturday, December 05, 2009
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festering // 11:52 pm
Ultimately, I think you're a terrible person and I never want to speak to you or have anything to do with you again.
But aren't we all a victim of circumstance?
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please, // 2:06 pm
confide in me.
I may not understand
all the time.
I may hold different
values.
But please.
I'll stay.
I won't go like you.
You always go.
Friday, December 04, 2009
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what's lost is lost // 1:23 am
I should give up trying so hard to hold on to what's gone already. It'll only cause me pain. If Johnny can do it, I can do it. I can live better. I can BE better. I can DO better. No one can stop me.
The old will pass.
Whether the new will come is still a question.
Come and go come and go.
Whether something will come is still a question.
Go is always the ending, I should be used it by now.
It's not called drifting.
It's called leaving and losing.
Should stop wishing tides come back.
They don't.Once lost, it's lost. You are dead to me.
Time to withdraw. Politeness. Strangers.
I'm really hurting, but what can I do?
This isn't about you. you - yes, you know who you are.
Smile, though your heart is aching.
Smile, even though it's breaking. - Glee
Thursday, December 03, 2009
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// 12:32 pm
K.N. rode past on a bicycle today.
I think I have the HK girl syndrome. I oggled and turned 180 degrees towards the bike as it whizzed past. Yes, I will hereby name K.N. the HK girl syndrome.
Frivolous and stupid.
It's too easy to melt when there's such charm. That twinkle in the eye doesn't help!
Special K, nutritional ;)!
