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shape without form, shade without colour
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do i dare?
Michaelangelo.
let us go and make our visit
time for you, time for me click above for a handful of dust
so how should I presume?
If you are a dreamer, come in,
If you are a dreamer, a wisher, a liar,
A hope-er, a pray-er, a magic bean buyer...
If you're a pretender, come sit by my fire
For we have some flax-golden tales to spin.
Come in! Come in!... for where the sidewalk ends. - Shel Silverstein
These fragments I have shored against my ruins. - T.S. Eliot
do i dare...disturb the universe?
ren-ka // alias. karrot,kawun
dob.11.10.
I live in a world where
lobster and corn can be very
good friends.
i have known the eyes already
songs: Strokes
tvb: dinner at 8
kvariety: nil
kdrama: ryeo
twdrama: love O2O
anime: nil
book: Moveable Feast Ernest Hemingway
website: moonbeard
website: stumble
headache: the boy
about the layout
Credits to magnette from blogskins.com, mods made by me.
Lots of it is inspired by T.S. Eliot's Hollow Men and Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock.
talking of Michaelangelo.
Friday, December 31, 2010
- personal postsecret II // 1:22 pm
I hate you because you make me realize how much I hate myself.
You suffocate me. You're in a completely different league and you know it and you just make me look so terrible. How is it my fault that I am me and why do you have to shine your light on my darkest spots, my darkest imperfections to show everyone. Silently crying with every laugh, every gesture. You make me want to end this. Stop being such a drama queen. But so what, when you really are hurting, you are hurting. I don't want to hear it anymore, or see it. Those eyes that fix me with that formulated phrase and so what so what so what so what. Every bit of me screams for you to stop being flawless. You run a perfect life while I just want to throw myself over a bridge.
As for me, I throw myself into my work and keep an eye peeled for silver lunch trucks, and I remember. I sometimes walk in the rain without an umbrella. When I see change on the sidewalk, I leave it there. If no one's looking, I drop a quarter. I feel guilty when I buy a card from Hallmark.
"She was elusive. She was today. She was tomorrow. She was the faintest scent of a cactus flower, the flitting shadow of an elf owl. We did not know what to make of her. In our minds we tried to pin her to a corkboard like a butterfly, but the pin merely went through and away she flew."
I see her in me.
"'Nobody has the time,' she said. 'The time cannot be owned.' She threw out her arms and twirled till her multi-coloured skirt looked like a pinwheel taffy. 'The time is free to everyone!'"
- one of my students shared this with me // 6:56 am
Fireworks
Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting throught the wind
Wanting to start again
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in
Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own
You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow
Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you can open one that leads you to the perfect road
Katy Perry
- - -
The road I've chosen is tough.
But, it's the only one I see myself walking.
It's the only thing I feel passion for.
A, you have reminded me why I love teaching.
You have reminded me who I am and how
unique I am.
I can hold my own and you, you. You go beyond that. Someday, somewhere out there, you are going to make it big. Your smile is enough to send a fleet of a thousand ships assail.
