talking of Michaelangelo.
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
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reenacting the myth, the lie we told ourselves // 10:58 pm
Oh lovely thought experiments, you feel your mind being squeezed a little, teased a little, turn a little, change a little. Just a little. You get little gasps of "astonishment" or realization. I like.
If they'd made the world for jellyfish, then...
Oh, you're right. I don't need to care what you think. Thanks for reminding me. I really don't need to care. But you are great, how were you able to do that all this time?
Friday, May 25, 2012
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emporium // 10:50 am
I had a strange dream last night. It's one of those dreams that just come back to you in the middle of the day, in the middle of nowhere at all.
I was in some antique shop. You had to go up a few stairs. There were bird cages and mahogany. The lighting was as one in David Fincher's films.
Awe and wonder. Strange feathers and birds and red.
I've always liked that word.
Monday, May 21, 2012
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how shakespearean // 12:40 pm
The music is only alright. But this is quite good.
I don't wanna fall in love
I don't think I'm tough enough
To endure the slings and arrows
But I want to be with you
So tell me, what am I to do
As my options, oh, they narrow
Oh, the words that you write,
They are keeping me alive
As I pace my prison cell
You say everyone is flawed
But I know that you are wrong
'Cause there's beauty just as well
Can we mine some joy from the stone of suffering?
Oh, I'm thinking on you
That's gettin' me through
I'm thinking on you
I don't wanna fall in love
'Cause I think I've had enough
Of the heartache and the sorrow
But I wanna be with you
And share in all the things you do
And share in all of your tomorrows
Oh, you cut me to the quick
Yeah you strike me like a blade
Oh, the things that you say
'Cause I see in me some you
So I wanna pick you up
And carry you away
Can we mine some joy from the stone of suffering?
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NTS // 10:34 am
Dear Smart Teacher Self,
Please, please never wing a lesson again. That was not so smart.
K
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spilling // 8:32 am
There's a hole in the sky.
There's a hole in my face.
You can see inside and the brain
and face guts are spilling out.
Momentarily disturbed by the universe that is
coursing through the holes everywhere.
The cause and effect of
failure and disappointment;
of a cycle so vicious.
The pouring out of black black black
ink spilling into the night sky;
Yes, the one with holes.
Closed today, closed tomorrow
Open yesterday but
tomorrow and tomorrow
and tomorrow
creeps.
Heard no more, this tale of an
idiot. Nothing.
Our holes, they reduce us
to nothing.
Momentarily turned
perpetual.
Uncross them.
Uncross them.
Let the ink spill.
Friday, May 18, 2012
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i feel like shit // 10:51 am
Maybe I just needed a scapegoat and I pushed it all on that. I'm being unfair.
Also, learn to take not just give.
Don't do this to yourself. Don't.
This week just destroyed me.
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
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// 1:12 pm
NO. STOP BEATING YOURSELF UP. STOP.
Ahhhhhhh, help me. How can you be so careless and absent minded.
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so, you chose // 11:11 am
You chose honesty.
That was a difficult move. But in the long run, it'll be better for your soul and for everyone else. It was just a scare. She'll get over it and so will you.
You're growing up, my dear girl. A year ago you would've chosen something else and that would've been... wrong. Own up to one's own mistakes. That's how one should live properly and with integrity.
Saturday, May 12, 2012
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when you are beside me // 11:22 pm
Don't measure how I feel
Dance around the fire
Dance around the flame
So take me with you when you go
Now that I know what I know
Thursday, May 10, 2012
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shhhhh // 7:47 am
It was just a dream.
Wednesday, May 09, 2012
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resurfacing // 3:25 pm
Is it like that?
The harder you try to push it down, the more it tries to come back out. I imagine this encasing with small cracks. But it's like an egg shell. One crack erupts, the white starts running and slowly slowly your yolk the nucleus of it all comes out and 'cause it's so humid, it festers and turns green and starts stinking up everything else.
And then you dream it. And you actually thought for a second you could keep it, you thought you would throw away what you have, what you should be grateful for. You thought you would throw it away for something you never had. You're such a disgrace. You should be ashamed of what you thought.
No, don't let it be like that. The more you let it irk you, the more it changes you. Don't let it move you (even though it moved your subconscious). Just don't.
Everyone, everything needs an out.
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strange people everywhere // 7:46 am
I don't understand how someone with such an open horizon, worldly background be so narrow in perspective, so enclosed and small in thinking.
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do i dream? // 6:53 am
Why was it so disturbingly real? Why did it make me wake up and want it to be more real? Why?
Again? C'mon. Why are you doing this again? I'm happy now! Go away!
Sunday, May 06, 2012
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to each one's own // 9:41 am
Let's let it down easily.
Patience, my friend, is a virtue.
Saturday, May 05, 2012
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singapore // 9:44 am
The rain here sounds like ocean lapping the shore. Loud and booming. Not a lull at all. The thunder is as scary as ever, but has a different kind of strength.
The rain the rain the rain in the night.
Nothing shakes, but everything washes away, washes away your consciousness.
Thursday, May 03, 2012
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mmmmmmmmmm // 8:39 pm
Dear Smarties,
Welcome back to my life. Your presence has been sorely missed. It seems you won't stop going into my belly. Yum.
Love,
K
Tuesday, May 01, 2012
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année // 7:45 pm
'Happy Birthday'
The red sweater
It was the way you
Smiled and smile
How your heart beat
So fast
Under inside
The red sweater
And I felt it
but I felt my own
too and it
left me so
felt has
the same letters.
But you are always
leaving
But you are always
coming
back to me.
And you never really
leave.
Like a heap we fell
towards into
each other and
You wouldn't let go.
I don't want to go.
Stand up you say to me
each time my knees
weaken and each time
it rains
And it rains but
the rain is warm and
your caress
I spent so much
waiting and paid
for the moments
we love
So thank you
is not enough
for the first of what
I hope of many to come.