talking of Michaelangelo.
Sunday, March 26, 2017
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apology not accepted // 2:37 pm
when you say sorry and you don't do anything to remedy
or even try to understand
it doesn't mean you're sorry, it just means
you want to shove the incident into the corner and make
the other person forget about it
actions speak louder than words
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anxiety ridden // 7:40 am
100miles per hour things flash by you, feelings included
In the cold
the wedding dresses and futuristic robot costumes cloud your dreams and you are going to win an Oscar but you can't find the floor you need to get to and ryan gosling is up next and
It's terrifying. Out of breath, you run ceaselessly until you find him and he is there singing but you look carefully and it's not him but someone you have not thought about in a long time who feels far away as a different dimension and these chaotic wanderings lead nowhere and the feelings are so intense and you feel the tears in your eyes, you don't feel safe
It is so cold
Thursday, March 23, 2017
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definition // 8:37 pm
Sifter of Dust
Suppose you know the definitions
of all substances and their products,
what good is this to you?
Know the true definition of yourself.
That is essential.
Then, when you know your own definition, flee
from it,
that you may attain to the One who cannot be
defined,
O sifter of the dust.
(let's flee...)
Wednesday, March 22, 2017
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purge // 8:50 am
you vile, pernicious beast
get your stinking fingers out of me
I feel you, stretching yourself into my veins, getting a hold of my head playing with my psyche with hormones (can that be an excuse? but you know better than anything that it's just an excuse). I can see your grotesque face for what it is and I will make it go away and I will not let you fester in me. I can already feel the rot pulsing through me. So may these words be a curse to your affectations because they're not real.
What's real is ahead of you, K. Just look forward, it's there, it's coming, it's true and when you wake up and he is there, that is what is real, that is what is true and don't let anything else divert you.
Sunday, March 19, 2017
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stingray tattoo // 9:05 am
One year from today I'm going to get a stingray tattoo for all the grannies who love us in the world and who are free and fly in the water.
Friday, March 17, 2017
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ashes to ashes, dust to dust // 9:42 pm
it's the first time I've been to a "happy" funeral
when someone lives past 90, it is a beautiful thing to be celebrated
a celebration of life and reconciliation
a hero's feast or one of red to cover the white
rest in peace
Wednesday, March 15, 2017
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warp // 10:42 pm
the skin stretches and the light beams pull you apart
you become another kind of you and your eyes
but where are your eyes? what do you see?
Thursday, March 09, 2017
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quiet the silence // 11:01 am
in a staggering downpour of rain where you can hardly see across to the other side, you suddenly remember someone who said, "God is in the rain." but in the all encompassing It, you are It too and you are also the droplets of rain, you are water, you are a flood of energy and you are also the kind of power that runs into the veins of the whole of the infinite vast and in the moment you are liberated but also held responsible for all that power
Be water, my friend.
sometimes there's no need to quiet the silence, just be in it because those too can be beautiful
